Vanessa
Carlton attended New York's Professional Children's School and
the School of American Ballet as a teenager, before being named
one of Rolling Stone's "Top 10 Artists to Watch in 2002."
As is typically the case, years and years of preparation led to
this 'overnight success.'
"Growing up, there was always music in our house," Vanessa
recalls. "My mother is a piano teacher, and when she was pregnant
with me, she made sure to play certain pieces, including lots of
Mozart. When I was two and a half, my parents took me to Disneyland,
where I heard 'It's a Small World' for the first time. When we came
home, I ran to the piano and picked out the melody, note by note.
That's how it all began."
Under her mother's mentoring, Vanessa was exposed to a variety
of composers, including Eric Satie, Mendelson and Debussy. She played
often, and quickly developed a versatile and surprisingly sophisticated
talent, composing her first piece at age eight.
"My mother has been an amazing guiding force in my life,"
says Carlton. "As opposed to the other teachers, who would
hit you on the hand and reprimand you for improvising on a classical
piece, she gave me the gift of feeling free at the piano and allowed
me to express myself. As a result, learning piano never felt like
work, and practice was never a chore. That was invaluable in my
development as a musician."
As she entered her teens, she also became interested in dance.
"I became obsessed with ballet," she says. "At 14,
I was accepted into the School of American Ballet. I left home and
moved into the dorm in Lincoln Center. I enrolled in the Professional
Children's School and began a new life. But I was surprised at how
strict it was. I had attended a Montessori when I was younger, and
I wasn't used to such a regimented system. The pressure was intense,
and the competition was pretty extreme. The first year and a half
was okay, because I was still able to grow as an artist, despite
the environment. But after awhile, I couldn't get along with my
teachers, and it became a disaster. I went from being the best in
my class to skipping class. It became too much for me. I felt completely
lost."
Frustrated, she submerged herself in music. "There was a dilapidated
piano in the kitchen of the dorm, and I'd go there to play,"
she recalls. "At that point, I had never written lyrics before,
just pieces of music. But all these songs started pouring out of
me, and I began writing. I had never thought of myself as a singer
or songwriter, but it became really natural and felt so good. In
more ways than one, music healed me."
At age 17, Vanessa left her dreams of a ballet career behind, moved
to Hell's Kitchen, and took a job as a waitress. One night, she
summoned up the courage to debut some of them on the club circuit.
"My father is so great," she says. "He would bring
me to open mic nights and push me in the door, because I was so
afraid. At first, I didn't want people to look at me when I performed,
because it felt too violating," she laughs. "But I got
over that when I saw that they were moved by my playing."
"I'd love to have people feel the way I do when I sit at the
piano and play," she continues. "I can play for hours
without realizing how much time has passed. It's always there for
me. You get in this zone where you're so in the moment and so in
the melody. I also find that playing the piano intensifies whatever
emotion I'm feeling right then and there. It's very spiritual."